End of Life

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Welcome back to another episode
of A record of my father.

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What are we talking about today?
End of life.

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So what is that?
What?

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Yeah, I think.
That's it, I think.

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Yeah, mine's already ended, So
what the hell.

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The happy go lucky The happy go
lucky topic today.

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I think it's, well, The thing is
we were sitting here kicking

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around and it's like, well, you
know, when you think about it, I

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think that that that a lot of
people do not communicate

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clearly what they want.
I mean, I've I've been through a

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number of relatives that have
died and I don't know exactly

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what they would have expected of
me.

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And by the time I knew they were
going to die, it was sort of too

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late to ask him, you know.
So I would like, I I think it

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would be a really cool thing to
do that, you know, you and I

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have talked about my demise or
mom's demise or our demise and

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all that.
You kind of know where

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everything is.
And I think that that's very,

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very, very important because
they're they're in a lot of like

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in my younger days when my when
my parents parents passed, they

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were completely clueless as to
what they should do.

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There is no simple thing.
My, my, my wife's going through

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it right now with her father
died.

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And there's, you know, there's
things that are that are

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scattered.
Well, I think what happens too

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very often is that you have
somebody that is not mentally

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well and then you have people
that come in and try to take

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advantage of them or they change
their their to do's around

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because.
They wanna make it their their

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wishes and not not the person
who died.

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Yeah, I remember seeing a number
of things and where they would

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take the person around to banks
or something like that.

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Oh.
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

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That was another.
One that was another one where

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where people are getting people
to sign over stuff and hear

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about this all the time and I
have friends were their parents.

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The one of the siblings moved in
with the parents and basically

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emptied out their accounts doing
stuff and then left, moved in to

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take take care of them and then
left.

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And it's like in the end, but
but that's like, I mean taking

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advantage of your parents, like
one of your siblings can or

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cannot do that or somebody can
come in and do the same thing.

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I think that's sort of luck of
the draw and whether or not your

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parents are going to trust you
to come in and say, hey, quit

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being a dumbass, you know what I
mean?

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No, exactly.
I guess.

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I guess if you have anything or
if you don't have anything, is

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this is this person in there for
another, you know, unscrupulous

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reason or is it just, you know,
it's a lot of times it's old

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people don't have anybody and
that's love.

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No, I think so, so.
They they reach out to each

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other and they lean on each
other and they depend on each

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other and you know and they die
and one of them is just left

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there taking care of it, you
know So and that's going to

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happen a lot coming up.
You know, we are.

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We are in a huge population
where there's a, there's a

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metric shit ton of old people
going to, you know, pop off in

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the next 30 years and you guys
are going to be there with a

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snow shovel scooping up all the
yuck.

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Then maybe that's the is that a.
Crematoriums are going to be

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filling the skies.
They're going to be, yeah.

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It's going to be grey, grey
clouds, Grey clouds you you

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want.
The grey clouds of old people.

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Oh God.
You want to be cremated, right?

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Is that is that?
Yeah, yeah, I I I'm, I'm fine

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with that.
I don't.

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I mean, I don't really care, but
I I for me it it it doesn't

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really matter.
It's a funeral in Catholic

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Church as well.
Funeral in I I I am in

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opposition to religion in
general, though I don't want to

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be, I don't.
I don't believe that we need to

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find some person that's
religious to speak for me who's

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never known me.
If there's I always.

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Found that weird at funerals.
There's many, many, many of

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people that I'm associated with
that are friends that are, you

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know, acquaintances that are
religious and if they wanted to

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say something, we'll have at it,
you know, and blessed to be

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whatever and all that other kind
of.

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I mean, I have relatives, direct
relatives that are religious and

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if they want to say something,
fine, I don't care.

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I mean if that that would solve.
It makes them happy, right?

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Yeah, because the funeral's not.
Frankly, the funeral's not for

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me, dude.
I don't care at that point.

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You know it's.
You don't think you'll be

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watching it?
You don't think you'll be

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watching it like a spooky ghost
man?

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No, I I don't, I don't I will be
at that point, I will be

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partial.
What do you call it?

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Ethereal or something.
So everything.

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Rodent food.
That's kind of you're going.

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To breakdown eventually.
But with the formaldehyde, I'm

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not sure if you're going to
breakdown fast enough to where

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you could actually, you know,
and then are you going to help

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plants?
Are you going to kill plants?

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I don't know.
I never understood the whole

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aspect of when the minister like
goes up and he's talking and

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he's oh oh, they're forgiven in
the eyes of God and God has

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blessed them with this great
experience of being fucking dead

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and.
It's just.

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Like, Oh yeah, it's really it's
funny it.

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Seems odd.
It's very.

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Masturbatorial to me?
I don't know.

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It's very, yeah, it's it's
almost overtly ridiculous with

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the the.
Especially if they.

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Don't know, yeah.
Well.

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Exactly.
They don't.

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They never do.
Yeah, well, they're there to

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calm that.
We'll know when a lot of times

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they do.
Really, it's it's the church

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that they used to go to, OK?
Yeah, if you're it could be that

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or if your mother or father goes
into Hospice, a lot of times

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there's priests there or doctor
or rabbis or whatever other type

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of thing that you call them.
They will come in.

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They're there.
They're they're they're praying

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on the week at the end and they
will create a dialogue and talk

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about, you know what, what about
your life and they'll learn

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about you and and then they will
speak and that is kind of like,

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I think that's kind of cool, you
know, cuz they actually kind of

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learned something about you and
they're saying something, but I

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don't know why that's more
important than you.

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They're trying to get that 15%
to tithe over and that's what

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they.
You, you, you have.

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You have talked to me and known
me since you were born.

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My wife has talked to me and
known me since she was 29 and

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she's now 64.
My sister had has known me for

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I'm 64 and a bit.
She's known me all those years.

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My older brother has known me
all those years.

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Those people know more of my
idiosyncrasies and where's my in

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laws.
They know me much better.

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I mean, when you think about the
different, the Travis and and

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Dina and and all, they know me
more than like anybody that I'd

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make as an acquaintance on my
deathbed.

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Which seems kind of odd that I
would let that person speak for

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me when in reality, you know,
maybe because they're a better

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speaker, I don't know, you know.
But it would seem to me that the

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best thing for from my
perspective is to is to have

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people that knew you prepare
something, even if it's

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paragraph or even if it's it's
he was a he was a piece of

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shite.
You know, I mean I don't care.

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You know.
I mean get it out because at

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that point I don't matter.
It really matters.

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The people that are still
living, it's their loss their or

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their feeling of loss or the
feeling of relief.

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I mean sadly, you know you you
you do you do get.

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You do.
No, no, no, no.

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I mean you do in horrible
situations where you hate

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somebody and they die and you're
like, yeah, yeah, yeah.

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You know, I guess, you know, I
don't.

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I don't really have that that
that level of hate for anybody.

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I have that level of, yeah, I
hope the prick hits a brick wall

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or something.
Yeah, that.

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But not, not that, not the whole
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But there's also like people
that you see that die very

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slowly.
Oh yeah, the suffering.

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Over years.
And you say to yourself like,

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well, this is ugly and horrible
and you know that to me and I've

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seen it.
So it's it's it's not pretty.

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And for me, I don't want that.
If I get into and that's the

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reason that we've had the
discussions we had and that's

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why we're talking about end of
life discussions.

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And for me on record, if I get
into being mentally

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incapacitated, I want to be put
down like a dead rabbit man.

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Boom.
Just go.

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And that's the reason why we're
recording this episode is so

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that I can show this is perfect.
I I am, you know I don't.

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I don't believe that that once I
become a pudding head that

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there's any reason to like, I I
don't get.

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It I think it's like it's worse
for the people around them too

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than when they play unstable I
am.

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Because because now I remember
relatives that were very close

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to me and I loved very deeply,
but I remember them in a

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different light.
I don't remember.

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You know and I've told you this
before like my mother who went

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through Alzheimer's.
I remember more of her being in

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a wheelchair with you know
unable to speak.

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Did not know us.
Just looked off in the distance.

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Then I remember her being the
happy go lucky go get em type of

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you know whatever person and I'm
like OK well that's that's not

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that's not the memory.
I want to leave with you.

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I don't want to leave with you.
I don't I don't want that I

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don't.
I don't think that's going to

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make you grow.
I.

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Just weird.
How the memory works is that you

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remember the worst times
imaginable, but you don't

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remember the good times.
I do.

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I do.
I do, but not as much.

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I don't think I have some.
Very, very visually strong

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memories.
I mean, I remember I can

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remember one if I just think
about it for two seconds, a

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minute.
My mother pulling in, it's 5/30.

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She got off work.
She worked at NTIS.

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She comes in, she has a blue 68
custom Ford.

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It's probably about six months
old.

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First new car she ever bought,
and she comes in and she not,

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and she comes to the door, she
goes, there's something under

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the front seat.
I need you to get it.

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She's got a big smile on her
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And my mom was tall and she
always wore a tall hat, so she

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looked a lot taller, you know,
so.

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You're like, holy crap anyway.
Yeah, And she just had a big

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smile on her face.
So I knew it wasn't something

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that was going to kill me and
and I knew I didn't do anything

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wrong because you know, we you
anticipate in in the olden days

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when you did shit wrong, your
parents would you know, but she

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didn't.
So I went out there and I I, I

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there was nothing.
I go to the rear, I go to the IT

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was a 2 door and I open up the
big door of the passenger side

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and I reach under there and I
grab something furry and it goes

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and it scared the hell out of
me, you know.

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And then I checked a little more
and I kind of like touched it

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and it was furry and it was look
in my hand.

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And then I got it out and it was
a little puppy.

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And to me, I mean I remember
that dog Floppy.

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And I, you know, that was my
first visual, that back to me.

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And the look on my mother's face
was she had bought extreme joy

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to her children.
It was just we were all in awe.

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And also, and you know, when
you're a parent and you don't

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know this yet, but if you do
something that makes your kids

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just beam, especially 'cause I
had not the most wonderful.

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We didn't have the wonderful all
the time.

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Good, beautiful, perfect, you
know, no, no eating the shit pie

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upbringing.
But so when that happened, it

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was not, it was not a normal
thing to see a happy, smiling,

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loving family together.
And this was one of those times

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and it was, it was amazing.
So I remember that.

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I would say that was almost an
abnormality for your family.

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Yeah.
Oh yeah, I can.

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I can go the other way and then
I can tell you the story about

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the.
But we don't need to go.

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There, no, we don't.
About end of life.

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This is not about about the ugly
things that that.

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The live in the shadows.
Yeah.

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Hey, you clean, You clean the
mashed potatoes out of the air

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conditioner.
I ain't doing that.

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Oh jeez.
OK, as we digress.

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You know what?
I was doing that.

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You know what I was wondering
too is why is an assisted

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suicide more legalized across
the country?

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And I think it's because they
the healthcare industry would

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lose millions of dollars, Yeah.
Yeah, I see.

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I think that's why when?
You when you go there.

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And you.
Well, The thing is, guess what?

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What?
Hey, you're watching me die.

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Guess what?
Here's I come up to you and

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somebody else comes.
Up he goes, Hey, Zach, you got a

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lot of money, don't you?
You know, we can let him live

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another month.
Two months, Three months.

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Would that be cool?
And you're thinking like, I'm

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only going to see him for three
more months.

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I can double his time on Earth,
You know he'll be here six

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months.
That's cool.

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They don't tell you selfish
reasons, yeah.

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Well, right.
Because it's, you know, it's end

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of life.
And say you see me twice a year

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and then you're like seeing me
all the time.

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And then you're like, wow, wow,
wow, I got to make up for all

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that time.
I didn't see him when I was

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having kids and all this other
kind of happy horseshit and

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living my own freaking life, you
know?

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And now I'm feeling guilty.
So now I won't.

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I wouldn't keep him alive, you
know?

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And who in the heck can look at
somebody and say, yeah, you

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should kill him?
I I think.

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I think it's a very strong
person to do that.

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I I just think it's a hard thing
but but also you have to know

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that.
I mean you have to know that I

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want that.
Oh yes.

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I think you've been telling me
since I was seven, I think,

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yeah.
That's why we built the garage,

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so you could take me in there
and cut the car on and let me

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when.
I was seven years old.

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You're like, wouldn't I get
Alzheimer's?

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You have to fucking kill me.
Oh, OK all right.

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Child abuse, man.
Child abuse, but that's what it.

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Is kid neck You're just nodding
there's.

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Yeah.
He's like, no, yeah.

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Oh jeez.
Yeah.

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And you've been trying it since
you were 12.

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You're like, hey dad, why don't
you go out in the car and go out

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and.
Start the car.

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Up.
And I'll be out there to drive

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you somewhere.
And you're.

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I'm like you don't have a
license.

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Oh, OK.
Maybe not.

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Now's not the time.
Though let me just turn the car.

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Let me let me talk to you for
I'll talk to you in a couple of

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months.
So it became a laughing thing.

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But also it it'll be hard and
it's going to be a hard thing to

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do but it's going to be I I
honestly believe that it'll be

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the best for all parties.
I think it will be and and it's

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my choice OK, mine I I think
it's I truly think it's mine and

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but the only problem is is it
once you go off the road to

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Puddingville then you you can't
make that decision to whack

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yourself.
So you're like you're you're in

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a bad situation, you know, But I
mean we're we're talking on the

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one thing we also have to
remember that that any end of

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life conversation you have with
any of your family, you know,

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you need to make sure that you
know where the hell everything

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is.
There's.

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Got to be.
There's got to be one place for

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everything.
There's got to be a safety

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deposit box.
There's got to be one account

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you log on to.
I mean, we have one account that

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you log on to and it has all the
other information.

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I mean and there's, you know
here I can give everybody the

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passwords if they want, but and
then we have it on paper, which

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is you know.
I can't believe there are people

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out there that don't consolidate
and I know I.

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Know many that do and I know,
well, yeah, I mean, I have a

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number of accounts out there
that if I didn't tell you, oh,

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I'd have.
No idea.

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Yeah.
They would continue to converse

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with me on my e-mail address
that you wouldn't have access

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to.
That's the most important.

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Thing.
And then they'd be like, oh, I

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guess you just don't care.
And then they would have it

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missing.
They might.

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I can't imagine that they'd come
hunting for you family members.

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No, no.
No, I mean would would a would a

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mutual fund do that?
I don't.

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Yeah, I doubt.
No way, I doubt it.

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No, that's why.
That's why there's this.

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I mean Valerie just she was
looking when she was looking at

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assets and stuff for she's
dealing with that you know now

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when you're when you're looking
for things and she found that

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she was owed money.
She found a, she's found a a old

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asset that she was owed 44
dollars and she just submitted a

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little form and got it.
So and it's like one of these

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Virginia has a website where you
can go and you can look up your

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name and see if they.
And it's like any money that

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you're owed from any bank that
you left $2.00.

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Then like you leave $5 in a bank
and they don't and they don't

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have enough fees to kill it
because that's what they used to

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do is they raise the fees up and
they just charge fees until you

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had no money in the account and
then they would and then it'd be

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a dead account you know.
But if you had enough money in

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it to continue to earn interest
then you're like and they can't

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raise the fees after it happened
all the otherwise they just say

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hey an activity on an account
for six months means we we

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charge you the full amount of
any mail and leftover and they

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you know that would be what the
banks would like to do.

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But I think the some of the
people that are watching the

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rest of us would fight against
that.

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I'm.
Surprised we haven't let them do

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that, considering the way that
we've treated the banks in this

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country for the longest time.
Yeah, we pretty much it's.

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Kind of surprising.
It's it's.

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Well, the reason we treat them
that way is because they pay to

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be treated that way.
And the weird thing is is they

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pay to be treated that way with
our money.

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And that's what's so funny.
It's just like if you if you

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start to really look at the
system in the whole situation,

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it's like wow, we put money in,
we give them, we grow them.

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They take that money, they lobby
to charge us more money to get

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to our money that they gave us,
that they we gave to them to

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make more money for us.
And what they do is they use our

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money to make more money for
them.

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And you're just like, well,
well, that seems.

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I know the circular of.
Stepping on toes the cyclical

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process.
I mean that's a really simple

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explanation of some of the
things that go on.

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I mean and obviously they're not
all that way, but you know,

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advantages are taken when
they're given.

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And.
Yeah.

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Before the end of your life,
what are What are some things

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you want to accomplish?
What's left?

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Oh, I don't know.
I What's left to do?

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What's left to do?
That's what I'm curious about.

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Oh God, I I The list was very,
very long.

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That'd be a whole nother
episode.

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We talked about legacy.
What would that be?

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The next one?
Oh.

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Or what do I?
Legacy is different than.

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Yeah, that's right.
That's what I want to leave

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behind what I want to do.
I think that if if you were to

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pose the question, you'd say,
hey, you got terminal, blah blah

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blah today, then I would have
to.

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Then I would have to make all of
my, you know, I got a list of

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like 30 different places, 40
different places that I want to

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go in any given time.
And I would have to shrink that

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really, really quickly.
What's #1 next?

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What's?
I mean, for me I would, I feel

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like.
Is it activities or is it just

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going to places?
I think for me the very best

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activity ever is walking through
the woods sadly by myself, you

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know?
Yeah, that to me is.

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I enjoy.
That when I when I and and

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frankly it's it's actually
better when I take the dogs,

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'cause then I don't seem so
creepy.

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So I mean, that's why I really
like the dogs.

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Old man in the woods.
Well, yeah, it's it's weird, you

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know, you got some old guy
walking along.

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And you always smile.
At everybody, yeah.

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I smile and I say hi and
everybody's like, holy shit,

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he's creepy, you know?
And I'm like, that's.

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But I do that in New York, you
know, and it's like whatever,

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you know, you do it in Japan.
And they're like, they just look

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at you.
And you know what I do?

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I smile.
I started.

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Doing that and it's funny to see
the shift in people's faces.

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Yeah.
When you when you look at them,

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they're they're confused and
they're like, oh, this is

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actually kind of.
Genuinely a nice Well, it's not.

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It's not, so it isn't.
It's not difficult.

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To be decent and nice to people.
And there's also a great

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introversion that's been going
on for the past 10 years, I feel

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like where people have just been
going inside themselves

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especially.
I mean, in our last episode, we

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talked about it to some degree
with COVID.

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Yeah.
And how people?

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Just.
Kind of retreated into their own

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minds for a long time, but I I
still think that they're doing

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that and it's with the phone and
it's with everything like that.

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I think, yeah.
It's it's so weird to go out to

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dinner and see four people at a
table and they're all on their

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phones.
That bothers me.

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That bothers me.
And we we do it too.

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I'm not.
I'm not.

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I'm not.
I never do it.

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I'm perfect.
I'm.

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I'm not.
I I don't do it.

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I mean, I mean the word, the
thing that you point out many

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times we will watch a movie and
we'll have a phone there.

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We'll be looking at our.
Phone.

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I don't understand that.
That kind of thing.

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Wacko.
Well, they see.

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That's why I like to go to the
theater, because then it's very

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much something I wouldn't do.
That's an experience.

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I cut my phone off.
So it's like I'm, I'm learning

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that it's it's not a good thing
to do and I there's nothing,

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there's literally nothing on the
phone and there's no reason for

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me ever to be staring at it when
I'm trying to watch a 30 minute

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show.
It just it's just dumb.

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It's just dumb.
There's nothing.

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There's someone.
That's blinking at me.

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That's making me, you know I'm a
pudding head.

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That's why I think two years
ago, three years ago, when I was

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going to the gym, I just leave
the phone at home.

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I just leave it at home when I
go to the gym because it's like,

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why do I even need?
Realistically, if there's an

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emergency, there's nothing I'm
going to be able to do anyway,

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So 20.
Minutes earlier isn't going to

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make any.
Difference.

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One hour difference.
Yeah, I mean, if the house is on

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fire, OK.
But at that point the house is

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on fire, what am I going to have
a?

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Bucket of water?
Well, hopefully somebody's

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already called the.
You would hope so if I find out

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from somebody calling me, that
means the house has been on fire

450
00:22:32,440 --> 00:22:34,200
for a while.
It means that.

451
00:22:34,240 --> 00:22:37,840
And also it means that, yeah,
well, I mean, whether or not you

452
00:22:37,840 --> 00:22:41,480
hear about a dead relative, you
know?

453
00:22:41,520 --> 00:22:43,720
An hour or so.
Yeah, an hour later.

454
00:22:43,720 --> 00:22:47,320
Or maybe you see it on the news
instead of, you know, hey, Oh my

455
00:22:47,320 --> 00:22:48,760
God, that looks like my dad's
head.

456
00:22:49,160 --> 00:22:51,160
Oh, wow.
It is.

457
00:22:52,800 --> 00:22:54,880
That would be horrible.
Yeah, displacing the phone,

458
00:22:54,880 --> 00:22:58,720
putting it somewhere else in the
in the house has been a a big

459
00:22:58,720 --> 00:23:02,880
thing for me in the past couple
years because it's so addictive.

460
00:23:02,880 --> 00:23:06,920
It's so incredibly addictive.
Oh my gosh.

461
00:23:07,080 --> 00:23:08,760
Well, it makes you like when you
go to bed at night.

462
00:23:09,160 --> 00:23:11,960
Yeah, I know I'll.
Be able to go up at like 9 and

463
00:23:11,960 --> 00:23:14,080
they're like, OK, I'll leave my
phone downstairs.

464
00:23:14,320 --> 00:23:16,880
How you do that?
It's like, well, because it

465
00:23:17,120 --> 00:23:19,400
makes me stay awake.
Yeah, like.

466
00:23:19,560 --> 00:23:22,200
As well, Yeah, so like, but
you're going to.

467
00:23:22,400 --> 00:23:24,560
Bed.
That's why I don't really get.

468
00:23:24,560 --> 00:23:25,680
What do you mean before I go to
sleep?

469
00:23:26,280 --> 00:23:29,320
Yeah, I'll read for an hour or
two hours or three hours or.

470
00:23:29,320 --> 00:23:32,640
Well, you're an avid reader.
Well, I and only have in the

471
00:23:32,640 --> 00:23:35,080
past three years, though.
Three or four years and I

472
00:23:35,080 --> 00:23:36,680
haven't been.
I was never an avid reader

473
00:23:36,680 --> 00:23:40,000
before that.
So this is our sidetrack off of.

474
00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:41,360
What are the?
What's the?

475
00:23:41,560 --> 00:23:44,360
Podcast for a reason, right?
Well, I think, I think.

476
00:23:44,360 --> 00:23:46,680
Ramble, yeah.
Well, the ramble to me is to

477
00:23:46,680 --> 00:23:48,920
jump back to the topic and say,
'cause I'm sitting here thinking

478
00:23:48,920 --> 00:23:54,720
in the background right now, if
you said you have, Oh my gosh, I

479
00:23:54,720 --> 00:23:57,800
got, I got two places I
absolutely, positively want to

480
00:23:57,800 --> 00:24:01,000
go to no matter what.
Well, maybe three.

481
00:24:01,000 --> 00:24:03,560
I want to go to Lotsa.
But where's that?

482
00:24:03,680 --> 00:24:05,240
Which is in Tibet.
Oh, it's Tibet.

483
00:24:05,320 --> 00:24:08,800
We are going to go in September.
I want to go to the North Pole.

484
00:24:09,880 --> 00:24:12,600
I I absolutely do want to go to
the North Pole.

485
00:24:12,600 --> 00:24:14,280
I want to fly.
Why do you want to know?

486
00:24:14,520 --> 00:24:16,960
What is the?
Is it just to say you went there

487
00:24:16,960 --> 00:24:18,360
or is it for what?
Reason.

488
00:24:18,960 --> 00:24:23,000
No, I just it's just it's it's
very weird because isn't it the

489
00:24:23,040 --> 00:24:24,920
RT idea of walking on the
tundra?

490
00:24:26,440 --> 00:24:28,480
You get close to it and then you
drive there and then you.

491
00:24:28,920 --> 00:24:33,080
I mean, then you you, you fly to
a camp and then you helicopter

492
00:24:33,080 --> 00:24:35,840
to the final place.
That's like an hour and a half

493
00:24:35,840 --> 00:24:37,720
or something like that thing.
And then you're just.

494
00:24:38,360 --> 00:24:41,080
You're like trying to place.
Your walking around and that's

495
00:24:41,080 --> 00:24:42,160
that.
And you're only there for like

496
00:24:42,160 --> 00:24:44,680
an hour and a half and it takes
you like a week to get there

497
00:24:44,680 --> 00:24:47,920
five days or whatever.
Anyway, I want to do that and

498
00:24:47,960 --> 00:24:49,640
it.
Just wants the pin too, right?

499
00:24:49,640 --> 00:24:52,120
The the dot, The red dot with
the pin.

500
00:24:53,480 --> 00:24:56,320
Yeah, that that'd be.
That'd be cool that'd.

501
00:24:56,320 --> 00:24:58,720
Be cool.
That and then the other thing is

502
00:24:58,760 --> 00:25:01,040
I want to see the pyramids.
I haven't seen the pyramids.

503
00:25:01,360 --> 00:25:05,000
I would love to do that as well.
I mean, I kind of want to go to

504
00:25:05,000 --> 00:25:08,880
Madagascar, but it's like I'm
really, I'm really kind of torn

505
00:25:08,880 --> 00:25:15,600
because it's so it's so this is
weird that I wouldn't go in all

506
00:25:15,600 --> 00:25:22,280
different places that that it's
it's so bad there now, you know?

507
00:25:22,480 --> 00:25:25,680
And I I just, I love the idea of
going and seeing ancient things

508
00:25:25,680 --> 00:25:29,280
and walking where those have
walked before that to me is when

509
00:25:30,560 --> 00:25:34,760
we were out West and sitting on
the porch there and realizing

510
00:25:34,760 --> 00:25:37,000
that Clark Gable sat in the same
place.

511
00:25:37,000 --> 00:25:40,200
I, you know, just that kind of
thing when I go to, when I went

512
00:25:40,200 --> 00:25:43,280
to France or no Venice and we
went to the little hole in the

513
00:25:43,280 --> 00:25:47,400
wall bar that Hemingway used to
go to and sat on the same stool.

514
00:25:47,400 --> 00:25:50,720
That was sort of like, you know,
I could sit there and stop for a

515
00:25:50,720 --> 00:25:56,440
moment and think that this great
writer was here at this point

516
00:25:56,840 --> 00:26:01,560
when I was in, when I was in
Africa and we went to Victoria

517
00:26:01,800 --> 00:26:05,360
Falls, we went to where
Livingston was, you know, and

518
00:26:05,360 --> 00:26:08,600
when he's.
He's Livingston.

519
00:26:09,640 --> 00:26:14,800
Some dude, anyway.
Yeah, I was African Explorer.

520
00:26:16,440 --> 00:26:20,680
And I believe I went there.
It's, you know, it's sort of

521
00:26:20,680 --> 00:26:25,080
like the Machu Picchu and why I
went to Kilimanjaro and climb

522
00:26:25,080 --> 00:26:27,360
Fuji and all the different
things.

523
00:26:27,360 --> 00:26:33,480
It's sort of like I want to go
to a place that was that made me

524
00:26:33,480 --> 00:26:39,080
feel like I've actually
accomplished something, even

525
00:26:39,080 --> 00:26:42,160
though it's nothing more than a
whole bunch of air travel and

526
00:26:42,160 --> 00:26:44,640
moving around and all that.
It is invigorating though, going

527
00:26:44,640 --> 00:26:46,000
somewhere.
And then just like I'm.

528
00:26:46,040 --> 00:26:47,760
Doing Yeah, I I know what you're
saying.

529
00:26:47,880 --> 00:26:51,080
Something in your mind, it just,
it feeds me in a different way.

530
00:26:51,520 --> 00:26:56,160
And also I always try to learn
something, you know, well, it's

531
00:26:56,160 --> 00:26:59,040
kind of hard to say that it's
like, yeah, I I I guess you do

532
00:26:59,040 --> 00:27:01,280
when you when you do that.
And but it would be more

533
00:27:01,320 --> 00:27:05,800
amplified if I would be dying
because you would want to be,

534
00:27:06,320 --> 00:27:08,920
you know, I would think that all
of my senses would sort of

535
00:27:09,480 --> 00:27:13,120
hopefully they wouldn't be
erased but or or wiped out or

536
00:27:13,120 --> 00:27:16,400
messed up, you know, whatever
our situation is, That would be

537
00:27:16,400 --> 00:27:19,640
a big thing.
But you.

538
00:27:19,720 --> 00:27:21,920
Know you know, that's provided
that you get notice.

539
00:27:22,160 --> 00:27:24,000
I think you learn no matter what
when you.

540
00:27:24,080 --> 00:27:25,080
Yeah, a lot of people, don't
you?

541
00:27:25,080 --> 00:27:26,640
Don't have to try you.
Know.

542
00:27:26,800 --> 00:27:30,240
Trying to learn anything.
Like you and I, like we end this

543
00:27:30,240 --> 00:27:33,000
episode.
I go downstairs, I have a heart

544
00:27:33,000 --> 00:27:33,600
attack.
I'm dead.

545
00:27:35,600 --> 00:27:37,480
Yeah, exactly.
I mean, that's why we're doing

546
00:27:37,480 --> 00:27:41,360
this.
Yeah, there's no there's no shit

547
00:27:41,360 --> 00:27:43,120
'cause.
You know death is such a random

548
00:27:43,120 --> 00:27:45,320
thing, you know.
You you could, I would think

549
00:27:45,320 --> 00:27:49,760
that you would make a little
comedy skit about how he didn't

550
00:27:49,760 --> 00:27:52,160
get to do those three things he
really wanted.

551
00:27:52,360 --> 00:27:55,360
To do that.
You have to play this in the

552
00:27:55,360 --> 00:27:57,560
back.
That would be just that I that

553
00:27:57,560 --> 00:28:00,360
would be so wrong that I would
love it.

554
00:28:01,880 --> 00:28:03,920
We would have to do, yeah, I'd
have to do something like that.

555
00:28:03,920 --> 00:28:05,880
I'm here.
And the only reason I'm here is

556
00:28:05,880 --> 00:28:07,600
to tell you what he didn't get
to do.

557
00:28:07,720 --> 00:28:10,280
I think the production value
would go up in the podcast too,

558
00:28:10,280 --> 00:28:12,640
'cause you would no longer be
here and then I wouldn't have to

559
00:28:12,640 --> 00:28:14,480
pay you as much.
Oh my God.

560
00:28:14,480 --> 00:28:16,040
Yeah, you.
Wouldn't get the royalties that

561
00:28:16,040 --> 00:28:17,960
you hold it?
I don't get fucking severance if

562
00:28:18,040 --> 00:28:19,640
I die.
No, sorry.

563
00:28:20,120 --> 00:28:22,640
I was thinking about doing the
severance package, but OK, we're

564
00:28:22,840 --> 00:28:24,640
going to have.
To hire an attorney, you'll be

565
00:28:24,640 --> 00:28:27,240
hearing from my lawyer, lawyers,
lawyers.

566
00:28:27,360 --> 00:28:29,320
It's better lawyers than
lawyers, Lawyers.

567
00:28:29,480 --> 00:28:30,680
That always sounds more
threatening.

568
00:28:30,680 --> 00:28:31,480
Which one?
Attorneys.

569
00:28:31,560 --> 00:28:33,440
Attorneys.
That's more serious.

570
00:28:33,520 --> 00:28:36,440
Attorneys.
Yeah, well, be happy.

571
00:28:36,720 --> 00:28:38,320
I love attorneys and people
always.

572
00:28:38,560 --> 00:28:41,000
They make all the lawyer jokes.
And I would say that, you know

573
00:28:41,000 --> 00:28:43,600
this thing, you're looking at
this house, you're looking at

574
00:28:43,680 --> 00:28:47,160
that house over there, You're
looking at all the stuff that we

575
00:28:47,160 --> 00:28:52,400
do, probably 2/3 of it have been
paid for by law firms

576
00:28:53,280 --> 00:28:57,120
indirectly.
And then they have paid for it

577
00:28:57,280 --> 00:29:00,480
because they built, they did
client work for multinational

578
00:29:00,480 --> 00:29:02,440
companies.
What sounds more threatening?

579
00:29:02,720 --> 00:29:05,320
Lawyers or Just Attorney with
no?

580
00:29:05,320 --> 00:29:07,760
Plural attorney.
It does.

581
00:29:08,240 --> 00:29:10,120
I think attorney.
Sounds way more threatening.

582
00:29:10,720 --> 00:29:12,160
How about my attorney with a
gun?

583
00:29:12,800 --> 00:29:14,520
OK, that's OK.
That's way worse.

584
00:29:15,200 --> 00:29:17,480
What about you'll?
Be hearing from my attorney with

585
00:29:17,480 --> 00:29:20,080
a gun.
And he has a briefcase where she

586
00:29:20,080 --> 00:29:22,960
where she has a briefcase.
Yeah, I think that that that's

587
00:29:22,960 --> 00:29:24,680
double threatening the briefcase
to me.

588
00:29:26,040 --> 00:29:28,520
My attorney is a gorilla.
No, that's not right.

589
00:29:29,360 --> 00:29:32,240
Anyway, we were talking about
the end of night and I gotta say

590
00:29:32,240 --> 00:29:36,400
like this is good.
This I I think this is this.

591
00:29:36,400 --> 00:29:39,840
This gives some some key points.
When you think about it is, is

592
00:29:39,840 --> 00:29:42,400
you got to, you got to have a
centralized place where you have

593
00:29:42,400 --> 00:29:44,360
everything that you've ever had.
You got to have a centralized

594
00:29:44,360 --> 00:29:46,400
plan.
Of course you got to have a will

595
00:29:46,400 --> 00:29:50,600
and and do not or please
resuscitate little thingy.

596
00:29:50,600 --> 00:29:53,240
What do they call them DNRS.
You got to have that kind of

597
00:29:53,240 --> 00:29:55,280
documentation.
Every law firm will tell you how

598
00:29:55,280 --> 00:29:58,760
to have that, but you have to
have all of your your all of

599
00:29:58,760 --> 00:30:01,160
your bank accounts, all your
stuff in one place.

600
00:30:01,160 --> 00:30:02,520
I think it's good to have a
person.

601
00:30:03,160 --> 00:30:05,800
Yeah, or you can have a person
or you can have a person that

602
00:30:05,800 --> 00:30:07,680
has all that information.
That also has a briefcase.

603
00:30:08,400 --> 00:30:10,440
Yeah, that also has a briefcase.
That would be.

604
00:30:10,640 --> 00:30:13,720
Those would be some some of the
key points that you would want

605
00:30:13,720 --> 00:30:17,200
to have and also some little
paragraph that or some little

606
00:30:17,200 --> 00:30:20,600
verbal discussion that said,
hey, what is this little?

607
00:30:20,600 --> 00:30:22,600
What is this asshole?
How does he want to be plugged

608
00:30:22,600 --> 00:30:24,640
into the ground?
Does he want to be, you know,

609
00:30:24,640 --> 00:30:28,400
shot out of a cannon and spread
over a big village and let his

610
00:30:28,400 --> 00:30:32,440
stinky ashes fall down on them?
Or I'd always love that, see.

611
00:30:32,440 --> 00:30:34,000
That's what I always.
Thought for.

612
00:30:34,000 --> 00:30:36,480
Me.
For me, what would be cool is if

613
00:30:36,480 --> 00:30:41,840
I got naked or burned, fired up
and then all my asses when you

614
00:30:41,840 --> 00:30:44,400
went travelling to different
locations that you would just

615
00:30:44,400 --> 00:30:46,560
drop them.
Yeah, and that to me.

616
00:30:46,600 --> 00:30:47,720
Oh, I thought about that.
I'm gonna.

617
00:30:47,880 --> 00:30:51,280
I'm gonna leave a little bit.
I'm gonna be a little bit of the

618
00:30:51,360 --> 00:30:55,440
old man here.
I just for me that that would be

619
00:30:55,440 --> 00:30:57,280
wow, that would be great.
I would love that.

620
00:30:57,360 --> 00:31:00,360
It's like the Malcolm in the
Middle episode where they go to

621
00:31:00,360 --> 00:31:01,960
Burning Man you.
Know what would be even better?

622
00:31:01,960 --> 00:31:05,880
They shoot the ashes out of a
squirt gun at people and they

623
00:31:05,880 --> 00:31:08,640
just get soaked in them.
I would do that, but I was

624
00:31:08,640 --> 00:31:11,200
saying that for me, in
particular me.

625
00:31:11,840 --> 00:31:15,880
It would be cool if every
location like distant place that

626
00:31:15,880 --> 00:31:19,240
you traveled to that you left a
little bit of me in the

627
00:31:19,240 --> 00:31:21,680
bathroom.
I I knew you were going to say

628
00:31:21,680 --> 00:31:24,520
that.
I I knew you were going to say

629
00:31:24,520 --> 00:31:26,280
that.
That would be like, hey, see

630
00:31:26,320 --> 00:31:28,080
that dirt on the floor there?
Yeah, that's.

631
00:31:28,200 --> 00:31:29,680
You want to know why?
I knew you were going to say

632
00:31:29,680 --> 00:31:31,000
that.
It's because I was going to say

633
00:31:31,000 --> 00:31:33,760
that.
Oh God, we're we just would it

634
00:31:33,800 --> 00:31:35,520
be the top of the tank?
Horrible, Would it?

635
00:31:35,520 --> 00:31:37,360
Be the top of the tank or would
it be the the bottom?

636
00:31:37,360 --> 00:31:40,080
I don't, you know, I would leave
that up to you, but I think the

637
00:31:40,080 --> 00:31:42,480
whole idea is, you know you
could write my name on the wall

638
00:31:42,480 --> 00:31:45,720
in ashes or something that.
'D be funky top tank.

639
00:31:45,920 --> 00:31:49,000
Bill was here.
Top tank in like a dime bag.

640
00:31:49,520 --> 00:31:54,280
Yeah, just taped to the inside
and I go back ten years later

641
00:31:54,280 --> 00:31:56,560
and I'd see if they were so low.
That'd be cool.

642
00:31:56,920 --> 00:32:01,200
They had one of those at
Kilimanjaro on the 2nd, on the

643
00:32:01,200 --> 00:32:04,360
2nd.
They had a bathroom, yeah.

644
00:32:05,080 --> 00:32:07,920
They had a they had a bathroom
that you sat on and it had a

645
00:32:07,920 --> 00:32:11,000
tank in the back, but it was
everything was frozen and the

646
00:32:11,000 --> 00:32:15,480
water wasn't running and it was.
You got to do sawdust at that

647
00:32:15,480 --> 00:32:18,960
altitude, I would think no.
No, they had a they had some

648
00:32:18,960 --> 00:32:22,520
artesian spring or something
that worked, and as long as the

649
00:32:22,640 --> 00:32:26,240
wasn't frozen, but the floor was
like covered in water and it

650
00:32:26,240 --> 00:32:28,520
was, it was, it was filthy.
It's like a skating rink.

651
00:32:28,800 --> 00:32:30,360
Well, it wasn't the worst I've
ever been in, though.

652
00:32:30,560 --> 00:32:33,480
It was.
It was bad, but I've been in.

653
00:32:33,680 --> 00:32:35,480
The worst I've ever been is Penn
Station.

654
00:32:35,760 --> 00:32:37,440
Gosh.
Oh, that was bad.

655
00:32:38,040 --> 00:32:39,040
Penn Station.
Yeah.

656
00:32:39,480 --> 00:32:40,720
Oh, God.
Oh, God, yeah.

657
00:32:41,280 --> 00:32:42,920
Yeah.
The guy on heroin next to me

658
00:32:42,960 --> 00:32:46,720
that was coming down and he was
sick and he and the water was

659
00:32:46,720 --> 00:32:50,280
about an inch about this deep.
And I was wearing my nice

660
00:32:50,280 --> 00:32:53,600
loafers and my suit and I had to
go potty and he was next to me

661
00:32:53,600 --> 00:33:01,240
hurling his guts out and I'm
just like, I got to go potty.

662
00:33:01,360 --> 00:33:03,080
I mean I had to and there was no
other place.

663
00:33:03,080 --> 00:33:04,760
And it was like, you got to go,
you got to go.

664
00:33:04,800 --> 00:33:07,680
You just just deal with it.
And he's in there dying and he's

665
00:33:07,680 --> 00:33:11,160
spot splashing around and I kind
of, I thought, you know, I don't

666
00:33:11,160 --> 00:33:13,600
know what it was.
Anyway, spotting scene when they

667
00:33:13,720 --> 00:33:14,480
the guy goes.
It was.

668
00:33:14,520 --> 00:33:18,240
It reminded me of that, but it
was before Trainspotting, like

669
00:33:18,240 --> 00:33:19,000
long.
Before.

670
00:33:19,000 --> 00:33:20,920
Oh, it was before.
Or 95.

671
00:33:21,000 --> 00:33:23,120
When did Trainspotting come out?
Like 97?

672
00:33:23,440 --> 00:33:25,000
Yeah, I don't know, 98.
I don't know like.

673
00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:26,760
That so crazy.
Good movie, though.

674
00:33:26,880 --> 00:33:28,160
Good movie.
Good movie.

675
00:33:29,400 --> 00:33:31,320
Wow.
No, this is fun.

676
00:33:31,440 --> 00:33:31,960
We.
We.

677
00:33:31,960 --> 00:33:34,400
Conversation.
What are what other points can

678
00:33:34,400 --> 00:33:38,440
you think that you that we could
have missed that you would want

679
00:33:38,440 --> 00:33:43,000
to know from me or your mother
about our end of life?

680
00:33:43,680 --> 00:33:45,320
Thing.
I think I already kind of knew

681
00:33:45,720 --> 00:33:51,440
to some degree that you were not
of a religious background per

682
00:33:51,440 --> 00:33:52,680
SE.
I knew that.

683
00:33:52,680 --> 00:33:54,400
I knew that much.
I knew that you wanted to be

684
00:33:54,440 --> 00:33:56,680
deep fried as well.
And same with her.

685
00:33:56,680 --> 00:34:00,120
I know that she wants to be deep
fried and I know that.

686
00:34:01,240 --> 00:34:03,000
But I think we.
We pretty much nailed it.

687
00:34:03,000 --> 00:34:06,640
I think my question that I
proposed earlier about what you

688
00:34:06,640 --> 00:34:10,000
want to accomplish before the
end is also something that

689
00:34:10,480 --> 00:34:12,239
that's we haven't really talked
about.

690
00:34:13,120 --> 00:34:13,840
Yeah.
We have to.

691
00:34:13,960 --> 00:34:17,080
We have to we have to put that.
We'll put that in the legacy

692
00:34:17,080 --> 00:34:18,679
like what you want to leave a
bind but what do you want to

693
00:34:18,679 --> 00:34:21,000
accomplish You know once once
you find out.

694
00:34:21,000 --> 00:34:23,080
I mean I I think about what I
want to accomplish from now

695
00:34:23,080 --> 00:34:25,080
until when I'm dead, which I
don't know how long that is.

696
00:34:25,480 --> 00:34:28,400
It's like that's a good thing
that's a that that I have to I

697
00:34:28,400 --> 00:34:33,000
have to give it a thought from
now until when you're you know

698
00:34:33,520 --> 00:34:35,679
pushing up daisies.
It's like, what do you want?

699
00:34:35,920 --> 00:34:36,800
What's your?
What's your?

700
00:34:37,000 --> 00:34:40,040
It's not easy to think about.
Yeah, it's not easy to think

701
00:34:40,040 --> 00:34:41,320
about it.
No, it isn't.

702
00:34:41,360 --> 00:34:42,600
It isn't, because it's sort of
like.

703
00:34:42,600 --> 00:34:45,199
Something to sit on.
Well, I want to make people

704
00:34:45,199 --> 00:34:47,480
happy.
I I just.

705
00:34:48,480 --> 00:34:50,520
I thrive on that.
That's always what I've wanted

706
00:34:50,520 --> 00:34:54,600
to do, to make people smile
because it gives me inherent

707
00:34:54,600 --> 00:34:57,920
joy.
Yeah, it's and and help people

708
00:34:57,920 --> 00:35:01,800
that need help and you know and
whether it be financial or

709
00:35:01,800 --> 00:35:05,400
otherwise, that kind of stuff.
This is like to me, you know, I

710
00:35:05,400 --> 00:35:11,120
don't give for them.
Yeah, I'm a selfish bastard.

711
00:35:11,120 --> 00:35:13,440
I give for me.
You're the living embodiment of

712
00:35:13,440 --> 00:35:16,360
why altruism doesn't exist.
Yeah, exactly.

713
00:35:16,360 --> 00:35:18,680
No, no, no.
I I no, no, no, no.

714
00:35:18,680 --> 00:35:21,320
You can't give that back.
You gotta keep it, because that

715
00:35:21,320 --> 00:35:23,560
made me feel good.
Exactly.

716
00:35:23,720 --> 00:35:24,800
Well, I think we're gonna wrap
up.

717
00:35:24,800 --> 00:35:29,200
Here is where I've come up on
our time and another great talk

718
00:35:29,200 --> 00:35:32,480
with you and we'll see you guys
next week.

719
00:35:32,480 --> 00:35:36,680
We have AQ and a section in the
Spotify, so if you guys have any

720
00:35:36,680 --> 00:35:39,600
questions, we have answers or if
you have some answers to our

721
00:35:39,600 --> 00:35:43,200
questions, shoot us, shoot us a
message on there.

722
00:35:43,560 --> 00:35:46,800
Thank you guys for everything.
You have any departing words

723
00:35:46,800 --> 00:35:48,960
here?
No, my only parting words is if

724
00:35:49,200 --> 00:35:51,800
anybody gets on Joe Rogan, you
got to throw our name out there

725
00:35:51,800 --> 00:35:55,840
and we'll we'll give you a free
coupon to Wendy's.

726
00:35:56,200 --> 00:35:58,000
Yeah, we'll give you a free
coupon to Wendy's.

727
00:35:58,000 --> 00:36:02,000
It's a free Frosty valid twice
per month for the rest of your

728
00:36:02,000 --> 00:36:03,360
life.
Yeah, we have that.

729
00:36:03,400 --> 00:36:07,000
Only between 2:00 and 4:00 in
the afternoon.

730
00:36:07,360 --> 00:36:11,160
Only between 2:00 and 4:00, just
like the AC guy that comes

731
00:36:11,160 --> 00:36:13,920
between noon and 5:00 PM only on
Mondays.

732
00:36:14,400 --> 00:36:18,640
All right, everybody, be easy
and we'll see you next week.

733
00:36:19,240 --> 00:36:19,680
Party on.